I never knew how painful emotions could be.  I mean I knew...but OH I NEVER KNEW either.  I was talking to my best friend and the person I love the most in the whole world.  He is my everything and he scared me to death.  I thought he was going to tell me that he really didn't love me that he hated me or something and just didn't have the heart to tell me.  You'd have to understand the whole story and I don't really feel like going into it right now.  but I started crying and it was the hardest I ever cried in my whole life.  I thought my heart was literally being torn from my chest small pieces at a time with excruciating pain!!!  It was so horrid. I thought I might just crawl into a ball right then and there and die.  Then he told me that that wasn't what he wanted to tell me.  He wanted to tell me he loved me the mostest and that he didn't know what he would do without me.  I thought I would kill him.  But it made me feel better...I almost made him cry too.  Wow...that was like the longest 20 minutes of my whole life, and I hope to NEVER relive that type of pain again. Well night you all. bye  I just had to get that off my chest